In a sensitive state, this is an experience on the cusp of anxiety. This is Thursday.
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Tightening
When I am in an anxious state there is a tightening, or closing, of thoughts into a very narrow 'allowed' band of topics, mainly negative. This is in contrast to my normally open pattern when I can sense intuitively.
This is much like a numbing of my body and even my dreams are what I call 'doom' dreams, where situations cannot resolve and things that can go wrong will.
Having said that, there are times when it is forgotten, like Yoga last night, but when that finishes there is that feeling like the tide coming in engulfing the smooth sand.
As I sit her it is difficult to think of anything to DO to feel better, except sleep. Accessing the stillness is not an easy option at the moment. If something like a rainbow appeared in the window that would help, but left to my own resources the mask which is in place blocks my normal strategies - the effort to do anything is too large.
I will try and record the experience in the explorations as often as I can.
