I am not feeling strong (mentally and emotionally) at the moment and it takes very little to cause that. Why is that? (This is Wednesday).
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Resilience
How easily my strength of purpose is temporarily shattered. How quickly a miasmic haze settles over me!
The difference recently is that I can watch it happening, which keeps me aware of it, though not entirely neutral about it. It feels bad! Not too long ago this might have descended into a deep place where consciousness cannot show up; it still might - but that seems unlikely.
The most likely thing is that I will sense the wow in something and that will be that.
Here is an interesting phenomena. On Saturday I was feeling a little low, until I went to work for an hour. The lowness went away - until I stopped, when a whole body minor anxiety feeling enveloped me. Does that happen to anyone else?
That didn't last long, but as it is now Wednesday and I'm still feeling something which I label 'bad' then there is some message out there. I have spent two days feeling the anxiety, but I guess I push it away.
