It's mid April 2009. I just want to fix these explorations in time. Exploration 73 is a statement of where I am today. The phrase 'up in the air' suggests that recent experiences are not resolving but also that the resolution is sitting somewhere in the universe. At the moment I am blocked from resolution, probably as some kind of safety device. When I know the nature of the safety required resolution will come. Until then I will wait.
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Embracing Change (6)
I have just been to my sixth Embracing Change experience, which has left me (literally and metaphorically) speechless. The block referred to in previous explorations has increased, it's as though my mind needs time to work through what is happening and has suspended some activity for the time being.
Even though I feel my communication is blocked,some others feel the opposite. Something is operating which is beyond my experience and I just have to wait and see what that is.
I feel that my heart has opened into compassion without my head getting in the way, so the balance of my emotion has changed. This is uncomfortable but also inspiring at the same time.
I have just read back to Exploration 60 and the seed for change was set then, about four months ago.
As for this exploration, I think it is about trusting 'the universe' through change and not labelling new experiences as good or bad.
