It has been well over a week since exploration 69, and quite a quiet week. This is an attempt to put subtle understandings into writing. All of this would have felt very different three years ago (let alone 40, when most things I now embrace were strongly disapproved of).
John Admin
Going Slightly Mad
The title is taken from the Queen song of that title.
The last few months have been really interesting (read recent explorations). A friend last week referred to my state as 'In No Man's Land', which is a good description. I have committed myself to change as current thinking isn't getting the world very far.
As I remove core beliefs to virtually nothing and old habits drop away I am outside my comfort zone much of the time. I am trying new creative programmes weekly.
It feels as if the past and future are compressing - past timing of events is fuzzy and anticipation of the future matters less. I am well aware that these are symptoms of early dementia.
This still brings up further symptoms of which I am very aware. The tension in my shoulders is huge. It has been there for years, but I now notice it all the time.
However, I feel more alive than I've ever been. There's a contradiction!
There is an incredible opening in most people I know to embrace new ideas and this year is going to be one of growth. Who knows where it will end.
