I have a clear feeling of expanding and contracting my consciousness over the last few years. I am challenging the contracting part of this, and seeing what happens if I am determined to expand. The results are difficult to explain.
John Admin
Resistance to what is
We all stay within a very narrow band of reality............ (stay with this thought). Anything which threatens this produces some feeling or reaction which brings us back into line by producing some kind of fear. Read explorations 60 to 65.
I made a conscious decision four weeks ago to challenge this narrow band of reality. This has required discipline on my part because habit is deep seated.
I realise that sustained time outside my comfort zone makes me very uncomfortable and brings on physical symptoms (poor sleeping/ relentless random thoughts/ sinus blocking/ dissociation/ language confusion). This is a moment of clarity within several days of sustained symptoms.
The process that lies behind this website has given me the confidence to let the symptoms be and see what happens. I sincerely believe that the ego is producing the symptoms (see exploration 65) to bring me back into line. I am outside anything I have read in books in saying this.
As for the exploration attached to this; feel in yourself what happens when your comfort is challenged. Be aware what happens (body feelings/ thoughts/ dreams/ symptoms). Do you quickly resist or ignore what happens or are you able to stay with what happens for a few minutes?
As my resolve to challenge habit is strong it is likely that future explorations will map this out. That makes me go 'wow'.
